Vaishnava Samhita. Karmadevi Charitam. Vol II Book VI Chp 10 Shloka 37

पठाम्यहं भागवतं पूजयामि च माधवम्  I

तादृशं न हि मे धैर्यं यदहं राजसेवकः  II

I too regularly read Srimad Bhagavatam and do pooja of Shri Krishna. Yet I do not have that level of courage. I continue to be a servant of the king.