Shri Rajagopala Deshika Charitam II Vol III Book X Chp 17 Shlokas 8 - 12
भगवद्दर्शने नित्यं दाहोपि ववृधे तथा |
न सुखं प्राप धीरोsसौ लौकिकेष्वपि कर्मसु ||
सन्ततं कीर्तयन् ध्यायन् कथयन् प्रलपन् हरिम् |
भार्यया सह सानन्दं कालक्षेपपञ्चकार सः ||
तथापि प्रेमदाहेन भार्यां त्यक्त्वापि बान्धवान् |
श्रीवेङ्कटगिरिं प्राप विरक्तो वैष्णवोत्तमः ||
धृत्वा कौपीनमेकं तु त्यक्त्वा सर्वं धनादिकम् |
विवेश काननं घोरं सिह्मव्याघ्रवृकाकुलम् ||
तत्रैकस्मिन् मण्टपे तु निषण्णो दुःखितो भृशम् |
बहुधा चिन्तयामास राजगोपालदेशिकः ||
His thirst for getting the darshan of Shri Bhagavan was growing day by day. This courageous devotee was not fully satisfied simply with the discharge of his mundane duties. He spent his whole time in Hari dhyana, Hari kirtan, plunging over the thought of His mercy and having happy conversations about Him with his wife. Yet, in course of time, the vaishnavottama's desire grew so uncontrollable and he developed such dejection that he left his wife and parents behind, and reached Tirumala guided by his thirst to see God. He gave up all his property. With a small piece of loin cloth, he entered the forest which is haunted by wild animals. Rajagopala Deshika sat in a mandala and started brooding over his inability to have the darshan of God.
